Instead you gotta keep it a secret, which makes them worse!

People in this age are so fucking awful and antisocial, you show any bit of friendliness or happiness and they want to take advantage of it.

I wish these people would just die off already YOU ARE PARASITES AND MAKE THIS WORLD WORSE FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME TRY AND BE HAPPY WITHOUT YOUR BITCHASS TRYING TO BE EDGY AND INDIVIDUALISTIC.

Maybe a ridiculous post but I genuinely am starting to believe this.

The people who say that don't have life long issues that cost them happiness. They don't understand what it's like to truly be miserable no matter what, no matter how much time goes past, no matter what I do, no matter how I try to think positively, nothing works.

I hate how I look, I can barely look in the mirror. This isn't body dysmorphia, I truly look hideous. No one would want me, even I myself get physically ill at the sight of myself. (And what makes me ugly I can't get rid of, no matter what)

I have some medical issues as well so that's nice. Love having more shit to hate myself for.

My mental issues have been bad. I'm 17 and don't have a job, drivers license, or any friends. I never leave my house practically. I am no one. With how bad my OCD and anxiety have gotten I get panic attacks at the mere thought of having a job and being forced to talk to people and have people see me. Do you know how pathetic that is? I am in distress over something literally EVERYONE fucking does.

And then people try to convince me that "suicide isn't worth it"? I have been like this for years, even if I somehow get my anxiety a little under control I'll still be awful to look at. I'll still be insecure one way or another. And living for my family feels pointless as well, I think everyone would get over me in a month at the most, i mean I never even leave my room, they remind me of that constantly.

It feels like such an empty lie to be told I don't deserve to die, when I am objectively useless. I'm useless to not only others, but to myself.

lifes gone down hill every since that day. ive lost myself, my family, my girl, im in debt, i dropped out of school, out of work, i have chronic illness, scars all over my body, chemical burns on my face, im a virgin, no friends for over 5 years.

im 21, and will die soon. ive already made up my mind, i just want to say wow what an absoulte shit life i was given. lol

Every day I wake up and just immediately think about how I am never going to retire, how AI is the death of art and culture, and how even if these things were fixed climate change would still be a looming threat anyway. Caring about myself at all feels selfish because these systemic problems dominate every aspect of life and superficial “self-help” won’t do anything to negate them. Like, I‘m probably supposed to be trans but I’m just too apathetic with too much of an incurable male body to care anymore.

I hate work more than anything really. I’ve had several jobs but just spent the whole time at each one wanting to kill everyone and myself. I hate how I did not ask to be alive and now am expected to labor forever to survive, but choosing to opt out is frowned upon.

I fucking despise when old people bitch about young workers not being happy. Sorry that I’m faced with the reality of my situation and put in the bare minimum because there isn’t even the carrot on a stick of “retirement” to look forward to anymore like you had.

And what is there to even look forward to in the future? Unlimited AI slop having taken over every medium of art and culture? Every summer getting hotter until grass won’t bother to grow anymore? Endless ads for sports betting and defence contractors shoved down your throat? There is no good future to look forward to. As such I am of firm belief that taking one’s own life is the only true and rational choice one can make.

I just want this to be over and kill myself then people tell me suicide is a sin it’s so annoying this is half the reason I don’t believe in religion anymore because how come I’m so sad

I sometimes fantasize about being with someone as messed up and depressed as I am. Going out to eat and walking around a scenic park before we take our lives. I've yet to find a person going through similar struggles like me in person, so I often feel isolated. It would be nice to have someone by my side during my last moments on earth.

I did all of my bucket list. I explored countries. I watched all the YouTube videos and video games I could. I got to make love to 4 beautiful women. Now life just feels empty. Im in second year of college in a cooked job market. I have a job though taking care of kids so they need me. But nobody needs me. I don’t need them. I’ve fulfilled my worldly desires. On the bright side I have nobody to care about or work for, nobody to watch over for when I’m gone. I’m free.

I was r@ped. I feel like I can't even function. Ive been in bed all day. Im somewhere between wanting to kill myself and not having the energy to even get up to do it. Im kinda a sexual person. I go to sex parties etc. I feel like nobody is going to believe me. I don't know why its making me feel so devastated when ive had sex before.

nao aguento mais essa vida

before i would be SO fearful about what would happen after i die, but nowadays the doors of death are looking much warmer. i used to be such an ironic mix of suicide ideation and death anxiety. i almost attempted this past weekend. it would’ve been my first try, from an overdose. it seemed too painful so i never went through with it. i’m thinking of maybe hanging myself instead. i honestly want to have someone shoot me, but that’s unrealistic. i’m truly just so pathetic. i was doomed from the very start. i have no one in my life who truly understands me. i have absolutely 0 friends. i tried to open up to my mom, but the way she tried to comfort me was shit. at some point she told me that i’m selfish. it pissed me off. i seriously want out of here. i’m only just one person out of over 8 billion people anyway, i’m not that special. i’m an ugly useless loser. i really am just so tired and desperate to leave. i truly know what it means now when people say they want to go home even if they’re already at home.

If this is life why going on, it's just going to go worse anyway. I hate it.

Looks like December wont even get a glimpse of me after 41 years of existence in this earth.

Tried to better myself despite not being privileged in life but still end up making bad decisions that led me do a lot of downfalls in life.
Ive been sober from alcohol/drugs for at least 20 years and tried building a family but just doesn’t seem to work out well for me, im sad that i’ll never have to grow old watching both my boys grow but i’ve come to a point where i dont think my current mental state is even sufficient to be a father.

I really tried my best to be a responsible human, not cause any trouble to the society and even tried to motivate and cheer up people that needed it but deep inside i myself am broken.

I think sometimes my younger years which was full of abuse and neglect drove me to this point in life. Its just endless years of trying to better myself but the trauma just comes up and i end up on a spiral from time to time.

I really thought the start of this year for me was another chance but for some shitty situation i am at the verge of ending with multiple charges at the courts due to me being at the wrong place at the wrong time. Im broke af and dont even have the means for a lawyer and honestly would never engage in a conduct to be in this situation..

I know the justice system in the country where im at would never favor people like me and im just another fella to get over and done with.

Anyhow, it is what it is.

I just got off a job interview and the interview was quick and questions are literally simple only for me to bomb the last one. I’m starting to believe that I really am getting dumber every day and being satisfied by mediocrity. This feeling of stupidity makes me so cringe about myself, enough for me to keep on thinking I want to off myself. Just plain worthless, especially when I can see people’s micro expressions when I slip something stupid or stutter. My boss never even assigned me to trainings because she probably thinks that I’m too dumb for it. I really wish I could enjoy life but I don’t feel that I belong anywhere. Just a waste of oxygen.

But please, please just listen to me and finally stop letting me hurt y'all

this is to my loved ones

dont worry im not gonna do it but i really should they dont deserve any of this

It doesn't.

Had no childhood, homeschooled in an environment where I was mentally and emotionally abused. This environment was a doomsday cult that I escaped at 18, causing me to run away from home and to become estranged from my cultist family.

Leaving home, I went into the big wide world... and caught covid several times whilst starting my lovely new job at amazon. Having barely just entered the real world, I began experiencing the notorious and awful cognitive effects of long covid. I used to be so quick and articulate. I now feel like a shell of my former self.

Despite having no education growing up, I fought my way into a top university through other means. Now begins the best years of your life! Or does it? I can barely process social interactions and keep friends due to the nonexistent healthy socialisation I had growing up. My long covid makes it almost impossible to process the amounts of information needed to actually work at my degree. I have been for many years now very depressed, but since covid I'm now essentially anhedonic. I have no adrenaline response and I am dead inside emulating most emotions so that I don't make other people uncomfortable.

On top of all that, I'm hypermobile with painful inflammation all over my body. I'm fucking sick of it all. I've done my best with an exceedingly and statistically improbably shitty hand at this point

whenever u tell someone ur sick of being alive, they'd always say that it would get better somehow and someday but that thing never even comes. its been five years since i last posted / interacted in this sub cs i thought that it did. i thought i was finally heading towards somewhere and had found myself...

all for it to come crashing down because of things that I can't even manage. my family sucks they'd all throw a party if i died. im at a point where i think id be better off gone. o wouldn't have to worry about a lot of things if i died why should i care about that homework that's due by tonight? im tired. school is tiring and my final exams start next week. fuck this university. maintaining relationships seem like a bother now too especially if I'll js always end up thinking that i dont deserve to be that happy around anyone. im as unlucky as i can rver get and it is frustrating. after years of thinking that i got better and my life was getting better it js fucking went downhill. im not even religious anymore but life makes me want to believe god is real just so i can blame someone. just let me blame someone that isn't myself for once

I’m 48 and divorced. For 17 years my wife took care of me, and since she left I’ve been in and out of shelters, motels, and my car. I have a lot of autistic/neurodivergent traits: sensory overload, executive function problems, social anxiety, trouble reading social cues. All my life I’ve struggled to keep homes, jobs, and stability.

I’m a domestic person. I like chores, routine, and partnership, and I thrived when I had that. I posted online offering to share my income in exchange for companionship and security, and nobody wanted it. Now I’ll probably have to surrender my cat.

I’m exhausted and it’s too hard. Right now I just want to die. I’m not looking for a lecture. I’d just like someone to talk to me, especially if you’ve been through something similar.

I lost my mother to cancer, my dad made me homeless and said my type make him physically sick (gay), to top it off I suffer from Autism, GAD and I'm deaf. I've always felt ugly all my life and I've always felt like I wanted to waste this body since I was 11 and it only got worse. I was raped at a young age and I haven't really recovered from that.

I attempted a few times my last one I was bleeding out and could see the inside. It's not that I want to die it's that my brain is telling me that I should die. That I deserved to die and I wasn't supposed to live.

I can't stop thinking about ending it even though I want to live. I think I'm broken inside and my brain just got so overworked from the constant anxiety that i feel like I just want to sleep peacefully without the noise in my head.

Any advice what to do to help, I just want to be happy.

I feel it creeping back up and I feel like I’m at my breaking point. I don’t even know what’s wrong, aside from my literal brain chemistry. I have a life I normally mostly love and people I definitely love

I just feel like the only answer is suicide. I don’t know what to do