My wife watched the bodycam of this and I saw some of it. The mother’s cries are harrowing. If I remember rightly she was in treatment for the trauma from the first child’s death and it was her therapist that suggested to allow the grandma to look after the younger child. I don’t know how I’d be able to live after that. Your own mother killing both kids, your therapist pushing you to allow her access to the second one. Fuck that.
When I told my mom I had slit my wrists and was in the hospital she was calmed in the phone but after I came back I learned that after the call she wailed so hard that his coworkers in the first floor (she was in the second in her office) heard her and found her crying in the floor.
I was very very close to doing the same a long time ago but didn't follow through because as I was sitting there about to, I happened to get a notification that my mom was online on skype and on an impulse I called her instead. She was totally calm on the phone, immediately said she was booking flights to come to me (I was in college a continent away).
When she got there she was also acting normal and cheerful and as we were packing up my dorm room so I could go home on medical leave, she asked me to take some boxes down to the recycling. I will never ever forget getting back to the room after dealing with the boxes and seeing her sitting on my bed just absolutely sobbing. She'd held it together to be strong for me, but the second she had a moment alone she absolutely fell apart.
(The story ends happily this was like 12 years ago, I'm doing well now and so is my mom)
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u/Nagant1349 6d ago
My wife watched the bodycam of this and I saw some of it. The mother’s cries are harrowing. If I remember rightly she was in treatment for the trauma from the first child’s death and it was her therapist that suggested to allow the grandma to look after the younger child. I don’t know how I’d be able to live after that. Your own mother killing both kids, your therapist pushing you to allow her access to the second one. Fuck that.