r/widowers • u/Odd_Temperature_1136 • 18h ago

Sick of this feeling…

It’s been almost 21 months. At first, I just went through the motions. Felt like if I kept doing everything, kept all my plans, continued traditions and holidays, that eventually I would feel better eventually.

Life is for the living, right?

But lately I’m so angry. How can anyone pretend that everything is okay, how can anyone treat me like I’m supposed to be okay and want to go do things like see a Christmas play or decorate for Halloween (it was our favourite holiday).

It’s not their fault. I’ve been pretending for so long. No one is a mind reader. I can feel the rage in my chest and just want to scream. I am hurting so much and no one but my widow friends know.

I miss my husband. I just want to enjoy my life again.

Can anyone relate?

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u/Serious_Ad_1420 8h ago

Yes. That's it. Without my husband my life is like the same bowl of oatmeal every day.