r/leaves • u/No_Lecture_1129 • 13h ago

glad i found this group!

today is my day 1 no weed. i have been a daily cart/gummy user for 3 years now. (growing up i smoked grass daily for 16 or so years, took years off to have a family and just started up when things became legal in nj- giving up good old grass was way different than this) i feel like i am having an out of body experience! i cant eat and i feel so clammy. i know this is normal, i am just so upset that i let myself get addicted to something.

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u/raverihardlyknowher 6h ago

Im on day 2 - yesterday I was so nauseous I could barely eat, the sight and smell of food made my stomach do flips. I was genuinely very, very unwell physically and emotionally. It’s already easier to eat today, although I still get queasy/nauseous.

There’s no sense or use in beating yourself up for “letting yourself get addicted” - you’re in good company, lots and lots of people become addicted to all sorts of substances - hell, a huge percentage of the population has a certified caffeine addiction. I would argue our ability to become addicted to substances/things is an inherent part in the human design and experience.

I’ve been really hard on/upset with myself about my relationship with weed, what it’s become, how much I’ve allowed it to hijack my life - but my wife keeps telling me the shame can quickly become a spiral and that I need to give myself grace. She has told me that sitting in shame or feeling too down on myself might only push me back into the bad habit and ultimately keep me from focusing on moving forward towards a fresh, hopeful future.

You’ve got this - and it’s okay. Thank you for your words, I’m rooting for us.

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u/newstome1234 11h ago

I agree with Naive. The symptoms do ease up quickly. You suddenly just feel better. Sleep was a struggle for me, but within two weeks it passed. Good time for extra self care.

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u/No_Lecture_1129 9h ago

thats good to hear! more self care sounds lovely.

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u/NaiveAccountability 13h ago

the first few days are the weirdest, your body's just throwing a tantrum cos it's not getting what it's used to. clammy and zero appetite is textbook, it'll ease up faster than you think

i did the same thing when my state went legal, convinced myself carts were somehow different. they're not. proud of you for starting

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u/No_Lecture_1129 13h ago

thank you so much for this. 🫶