Today I went to some "mental health specialist" because of some actual serious problems, whatever, when she asked if I can sleep well I said yes but I smoke weed for that. and that was it. she said something like "we can't help you while consuming" and that I'd need it to be clean to start
what kind of sense does that make? then she started talking and basically said "yes all of your problems are because or worsened by weed and you are addicted but we won't help you until you quit"
I understand these doctors work like that and I can just go to another place but in general, everyone says somewhat the same and it's always wrong, and it's really tiring;
I try to smoke a little bowl after 4:20pm and another one after 8pm but I'm always late for them anyway, and I don't usually fill it to the very top if it's pure weed, but to the half or 1/3. if i fill it to the top It's mixed with other herbs. so a full, pure bowl from my tiny pipe is quite rare for this very addicted guy, let alone a full (and really thin!!) joint.
I must say I don't always smoke only twice in the day but I dont go very crazy either and it's the same amounts
don't ask me about all the good habits weed made me pick up and the bad ones it made me quit. of course I don't have a perfect life but it has reshaped me a lot and still is, I think only my sister sees that, and the fact that it's literally the only thing I consume or do (I dont even eat salt or sugar)
I could sell all the shares I hold and buy everything from a few dealers I know right tomorrow if I wanted to. I could have done that for a long time, I could have done that at my worst, instead, I tried to keep it with me by improving. because I genuinely love the plant and want to smoke for as long as I can in a way that helps me
all of this just for people to blame it for everything, it's very easy to just dismiss my every problem and say it's because of weed, point at it like it's killing me while it has been the only thing that kept me alive at one point...
thanks for reading
edit. forgot to say I always buy the cheapest weed and purposely store it in a non airtight container so it's not even strong