Plus look how good I look in a jumpsuit.

Got my PPV SRS at the Wansiri Hospital with dr Saran since then I have:

-become an international DJ

-Started a club night

-got a AAA press pass at a music festival

-made some amazing friends

got featured in 2 photos exhibitions

-fallen in love

-hugged zack Polanski

Life is hard for the dolls right now, but remember life can be amazing

Ig @morgana.steele

Can’t believe it’s been that long already. Felt like just yesterday that I started my journey, and I couldn’t be happier being able to be my true self these last couple years. 💜

I used to wear this dress to cons pre-hrt, before I identified as trans. I haven't worn it in awhile. I put it on the other day for an event at my local LGBT center and was really happy with the more feminine silhouette I've developed! It fit me much better than before. I'm no longer a box. 😆 Albeit I'm still 40+ and trying to get rid of some remaining dad bod. But happy nonetheless.

Turning 35 has hit a specific "I'm halfway dead" trigger in my mind. I'm generally accepting of it, accepting of my death, and I have a great plan to spend my last 30 or so years. I am going through a midlife crisis in that sense, but I feel that I will be better for it. There's only one painful thing: I never got to be a teen nor much of a 20-something. The pandemic took the last of my 20s, and I didn't get to experience them much. I spend my pre-transition years drinking and smoking weed mostly, and finally sobered up after coming out. I got a brief stint out at 28, and then COVID and I was 31 before normalcy resumed.

Youth is wasted on the young indeed. There are so many youthful activities I still wish to do, a new life I want to carve for myself. I can't though, my body is getting tireder, and my life has become quite set in its ways. I have a great life, and some great new paths I want to take going forward. I'm happy to be out as myself. I'm joyous I'm still a lady and 35 is quite young to many here. Still, there are so so many missing years and I think any trans person gets that. They weigh heavy on my heart when it's difficult to sleep at night. And now, seeing the age on my body starting to come through, I'm getting that reminder that I'm somewhere else in life than the younger generations.

A few nights ago I got to dress up for a friend’s enchanted forest party, surrounded by people who love me just as I am. I wish that little girl from my past could have known that someday she wouldn’t have to hide alone in a bathroom, scared that it meant something awful or broken that she wanted so deeply to be a girl

I have caught myself smiling a lot more in the mirror, and I have never been happier. It is so much fun putting together outfits every day! 💄👠👗

Been experimenting with new looks recently after starting hormones - both for work and for going out! Here is a couple of the looks!

Oh also really happy with the new shellak nails I had made yesterday! 💅🏼

After all these years, not a day goes by that I don’t wake up happy about who I am and how my transition has gone! 💜 44 years old and feeling 20 still!

33y 2y5m hrt

I've been experimenting with more outfits lately ;3

I can't get over how my eyes have been looking lately!

(Pics are just before leaving for the gym.)

After many months of waiting, I'm finally starting HRT! I'm so excited and happy and can't wait to feel the changes that are coming!!

This gives me euphoria. Especially with the boots im wearing!

Started hrt one month after my 38th birthday and recently celebrated my 40th and one month after that my 2nd year of hrt 🙌🏻🤗 no surgeries as of yet. It’s so crazy that this is just life now 🥹

I've been on estrogen for a little over a year now, and I've definitely noticed that I cry a lot more easily than I used to.

These past few months have been especially hard emotionally, and lately I've found myself crying almost every single night before going to bed. It's been happening for about a month now.

I just get overwhelmed with sadness and loneliness, and sometimes I can't even really explain why I'm crying. I just feel incredibly alone.

I know estrogen can make you more emotional, but is crying this frequently normal? Has anyone else experienced something similar while transitioning?

I'm starting to wonder if this is just part of the hormonal changes or if there's something deeper going on with my mental health.

I'd really appreciate hearing about other people's experiences. ❤️