r/Morality • u/toblaro • 16d ago
(TW, depression/suicide) Morality of telling your loved ones you have a date for ending your life if it still doesn’t feel worth it by a certain age?
Context, I’m 37, I’ve led a very fortunate life, on paper I’ve had it all, a beautiful wife who loved me and supported me for many years of poor mental health, currently a girlfriend who is incredible, some really nice friends and lovers and many amazing experiences, I’m financially secure enough, my body has its quirks but has mostly been reliable and capable.
However for as long as I can remember I have not enjoyed the experience of being alive, I don’t seem to be able to block out all of the pain and suffering I see around me, since my mid 20s I’ve been actively working on figuring out why, I take medication which has helped and therapy has been useful, I’ve had more good years in my 30s then I had before.
The last while whenever I have felt
suicidal I have given myself until I’m 40, having an end date makes it easier to just keep existing and see what happens.
I’m conflicted about telling people close to me
About this, they already know I have suicidal tendencies so it wouldn’t be a surprise and I feel some of them would understand but it also feels like a burden they don’t need.
TLDR: if your friend or lover had set themselves an end date would you want to know?